hmmmmm....

jus came back frm suntec city after going there to set up our booth for e WCG 2007 which starts tis thursdae wif one of my colleague n e boss...

haha...

all i can sae is...i'm very tired nw le...

tink of tml still nid go there again jiu sianz le..
hopefully can leave early tml...

gg off to slp soon le..
gd nite pple....

do U noe hw important U r to mi??? 11:54 PM

haiz...
jus came back frm attachment...
feeling very moodless nw...

hw i wish U can give mi a chance..??... :'( 8:01 PM

sianz...

jus came back for work after working for e whole dae...
so tired n my whole body aches lyk hell..
early in e morning go for my attachment den at ard 3pm rush dwn to point to start work at 5pm..
so tiring...

to make things worst for me while working in ntuc..e devil is buggin mi again le...
so sianz...

tml also working e whole dae le..
so sianz...

but never mind..
todae work nite can c HER n finally chat wif HER while at work though it's a very short conversation..
but i'm very happy le...

dat's all for todae le...
going off to slp le..
gfd nite everyone..
tc..

=) 11:29 PM

hmmm.. todae leave e workplace at ard 7.30pm..
so tiring sia...
todae after lunch jiu go paint e cabinet le..
den in e end...breathe in plenty of thinner n paint....so sucks sia..
makes mi very giddy n moodless..
sianz..
tml n sundae still nid went back paint e wood board again le...
den after dat... still nid rush dwn to ntuc work..
sianz sia..
i'm now super tired le..e only thing dat i'm looking to is to c HER tml when i went back to ntuc to work le..
dat's is wad kips mi going on n on....

3 more wks to end of attachment n e start of my holidaes le...
i'm going to enjoy myself to e max n rest as much as i can...
as well as returning to playin bball....
it's been a super long tym since i last plae le..
haha...

as well as my chalet in sep n mayb ah jack de...

haha...

i'll survive till e end no matter hw tired i am..

n hope tml when i go back ntuc work..
i wont lose my temper again le...

dat's all for nw le...

gal... I miss U a lot..n i'm still waitin for U... 9:03 PM

hmmm.... jus finish eatin my dinner jiu come online le...
haha...

jus nw end work at ard 6.15pm den rush dwn to pt to meet tui xiong for dinner...
as always...we sit outside e ntuc n chat bahx..
den a short while later....denson come n join us n we carry on chatting...
den i chat wif them abt HER..
den when i say if i wan to 4get HER..i MUST quit e job..becos dat's e only way out for mi...
n denson reply mi dat if i reali haf e heart to forget HER..i will b able to do it de...n dat i also
dun nid quit e job de....but i dun wish to force myself to 4get HER de...

cos i still rmb e 1st tym she came there to work after HER O levels last last yr de dec...
i noe i've fallen for HER le...when she stop working there after e cny last yr..i was tinking of HER all dae long n hoping to c HER come back work or wad....i've never give up at all...
in e end...ard july last yr...when i heard ah cheng aunty told mi dat gt one cashier whu was working durin cny come back work le...i was hoping dat it was HER...n it turn out to b HER...

though i saw HER a couple of tyms..but i dun dare to approach her....
dat was when i spent i tink abt more den a wk browsing thru friendster hoping to find HER....
den in e end...managed to find HER n since dat nite....we begin to sms one another le...but dat was only for a short period only as i've failed badly to understand HER...

den nw...
it's been abt one yr since we noe each other le...n throughout tis one yr..
many unpleasant things haf happened between us which some of things i up till now...
still regretted saying it.....
haiz..

n throughout all tis period...my love for HER is gettin stronger n stronger...
n dat's all i can sae...

N nw....in order to c her frm afar...i've always tried my best to work frm 7am-10pm or 5pm jus to c HER only even though i admit i'm very tired le but i still force myself to carry on.......
n it's been mths since i last tok to her while at work le...
but to mi..it's okay de...
i dun mind working long hrs jus to c HER once or wad de..as sometyms i can b very very busy till i cant go out n walk ard...

everydae,every moment..I've been tinking of u n hoping dat u'll b fine...
it's fine if U cant accept mi...even if U treat mi very bad...i WONT GIVE UP ON U DE...
U're very important to mi be it as a fren or a stranger....
all i ask from U is ur trust n to b there for U whenever U r feelin dwn...
gal...i reali love U a lot......n i'll b waitin for U de.. 8:48 PM

haha...i'm here to blog le

todae work was alrite bahx...
slack inside e office for almost e whole dae..
haha..
so shiok...

den todae end at ard 7pm den i rush dwn to hougang pt ntuc to find jennifer n discuss somethings wif her..

den c all pple wearin e new uniform n they all look gd..
haha..
i cant wait for this sat to wear e uniform..

haha...

dat's all for todae liao bahx...

i'm still waitin for U to give mi e chance to be wif U...ni zhi dao ma?? 9:16 PM

sianz....
as expected again...todae whole dae was packing up of e mousepad..
so bored..
but after work...
rush dwn to hougang mall there to meet wei xiong for some lan gaming at hougang plaza..ple frm ard 7.30pm-9pm bahx...
den after dat jiu went hougang pt meet jack for supper in e kfc..
den ard 11pm wei xiong went hme den i accompany jack to take his bus opp hougang primary...but dat was after jack n me was talking for abt 1/2 hr..haha..
so long didnt meet him n haf a nice chat wif him le..

haha...

den after dat i jiu take 88 go hme le..
so tired everydae...
my 2 mths holidaes faster come la..
haha...

dat's all for todae le..
tc everyone..

I'm missin U n tinking of U every moment...I will wait for U de... 12:04 AM

hmmm.... as expected...
todae in office was busy...
whole dae sit dwn there pasting e mousepad de surface onto e acrylic...
so sianz...
not much tym to rest de...

tink tml will also do e same thing bahx....

so now...
i'll tok abt ytd bahx..
ytd went work from 7am-5pm..
all i can sae is..
it's fcuking busy n e aunties working in e morning shift r makin mi mad...
dunno wad's wrong wif them..
though it's quite suprised dat they didnt even quarrel...
but overall...
after pushin myself to e limits while at work on sat..
i also again push myself to e limits on sundae...
it's so fcuking tiring...as well as very very stress....
but luckily e devil ricky didnt come fan mi on sun..
otherwise...he'll face my wrath....

i'm already very stress thoughout my attachment wrking in e company frm mon-fri..
den on sat n sun...
still nid face more stress....

haiz...

i'm already very tired le...though it's only one more mth to e end of e attachment...
i'm reachin a stage where i can jus heck care everything le...
i no longer fear anyone le...

i've done my best le...

everydae,n every moment...i'm tinkin of U n hoping U dat U can give mi one chance..
haiz... 9:48 PM

hmmm.... jus wake up n going to office soon le..
tink todae go work also cant slack much bahx...
sure gt plenty of things to do de...
sianz...
shall update more later when online tonight bahx...

to HER.. get well soon bahx...
u're always on my mind... 7:08 AM

hmmmm.... jus came back frm work not too long ago....
all i can sae abt work todae is so FCUK UP!!....
all thks to e overall fresh department head by e name of ricky...
kip on nagging to mi abt lyk e shelving for e fruits must nt b empty at all times n asking mi to find something to put when there's not much items...
sianz...
early in e morning kip on sticking to mi lyk glue until ard afternoon tym den he went off le..
so sianz....
i dunno wad e hell they all wan...
haiz...
i hate e hypermart concept...its sucks... no tym to rest de...
sianz...
super tired...

tml working morning again le..n jennifer is off n wendy workin afternoon...
sianz..
hope tml there'll b no aunty quarrelling though i'm expecting it will happen jus lyk everytym..
but tis tym....i'll make sure it will all stop it once n for all..

anyway...
e only gd pt of workin for e whole dae todae from 7am-10pm....
is to c HER smile again...
dat's e main reason y despite my tiredness...seein HER smile makes my dae complete...

dat's all for todae le...

tc everyone...

i miss U a lot...ni zhi dao ma???... 10:52 PM

haha...
it's confirm..i'm having a 2 mths holidaes after my attachments ends on e 18th of august..
haha...
one more mth to go...

finally..i haf a break le...
later going to hougang mall to discuss e new plans for my chalet le...
...
tml working at 7am again le..
dunno will work until wad tym...
sianz...

nw only lookin forward to sundae nite where i'll b meeting someone after so long le..
haha...

all i can sae nw is...

i do hope to haf UR trust n i'm still tinking of U.... 9:21 PM

sianz...
dunno wad to blog le...

all i noe dat... i'm tinking of U whole dae long....
i noe in ur eyes...i'm jus a simple fren n nth else le....

haiz...

hw i wish i can dun nid face all tis sadness n rest in peace forever.....

haiz... 9:45 PM

haiz...
todae leave early from my attachment..or rather.. 10mins early...
reach hme at ard 6.45pm...
eat dinner n den come online bahz...

so finally i've gt e ans frm HER le...
i'm jus only a fren...
i noe i cannot 4get HER n i'll face e reality... i wont run away frm it....

jus wanna tell U dat... i'll respect ur decision...

dat's all for now le...going to meet jack soon n discuss e plans abt e chalet dat i'm opening in sep...
tc everyone... 7:45 PM

hmmm...
shall update abt ytd bahx...

ytd work frm 7am-2pm...
overall,...work was alrite bahx...
cos is jennifer working morning den none of e aunties dare quarrel or make any trouble...
haha...
though overall...
work was fcuking tired...but i still can take it bahx..
den ytd i finally get e new uniform le...but e XL size i gt feel tight when i went hme after work n try it out den went back at nite to change again...

it's gd dat i went back again at nite...
finally saw SOMEONE smile le..
i'm so happy..
haha....


as for todae...
it was quite busy at office bahx...
whole dae kip doing e key-tags for e upcoming WCG..
sianz...n not much tym to rest de,,,,
so sianz....

but nvm..... after tis wk... left only 4 more wks to go.....
i will survive for e last 4 wks de...

dat's all for todae le..

hmmm..everydae,every moment..i'm tinkin of U..hoping dat U'll b fine... 9:20 PM

hmmm.... jus came back frm work not too long ago...
todae work was so fcuk up...
so sianz...

todae is a black sat for mi bahx...
at work pull e veggie de pallet up to e preparation area n i slip n fell dwn thks to e fcuking floor n luckily as "jet" dat i chose stop in tym n when i turned my head n look..it was jus rite beside my neck...only a few cm separates my neck n e wheels of e jet..

so sianz...

i hate dat fcuking slope...almost died thks to it...
fcuk e pple whu planned e renovation of e place...

sianz...


den todae at work...
there's so many quarrels between e aunties..
so sianz.....
dunno y cany they work peacefully...
haiz....
dunno wad to do wif them le..

so sianz...
makes mi mad....

haiz....

but never mind...
todae still managed to tahan until 10 pm despite startin work at 7am...
though i can leave early if i wan...
but it's alrite..

managed to c HER frm afar n dat's wad dat kip make going....

haha... 12:12 AM

hmmm....
jus came back hme frm attachment.....
todae work was alrite over there bahx...
quite slack de....

haha...
todae whole day kip tinking of HER....
i'll wait for U de....

hmmm....going to compass to meet shiou le..tc everyone... 7:51 PM

sianz...
todae whole dae at e office was busy...
not much tym to rest de...so sianz..
but luckily still can tahan...

den when work end...
rush dwn to hougang pt to find jennifer n tok abt somethings...
guess i'll b working morning till e dae she managed to hire pple.....
so sianz..
i miss working nite....
super long didnt work nite n chat wif those aunties le...
miss jk ard wif them so much...
haha...

dunno wad to say le...

dat's all for 2nite bahx... gd nite everyone...

i'm still tinking n missin U... 9:40 PM

sianz...

feeling super no mood nw...

after receiving e reply frm Mr alan ong who is e teacher in charge of IAP...
n he told me dat there's no holidaes when my attachment ends.....
my 1st reaction was..wth...
sianz..

i'm in need of a holidays now...i nid to recharge myself....
haiz...

16 more daes to e opening of e hypermart at hougang pt ntuc...haiz..
i'm not looking forward to dat...
cos it'll b e start of my nightmare..
haiz..

since there's no holidaes for mi once i end my attachment on e 18th...
n i'll b starting my final semester le...
which means..i'll most probably b havin my final exams in jan next yr if i'm not wrong...
n perhaps...comes dec...dat'll b my last mth working at e ntuc liao le bahx...
cos i wanna give my very best for my last semester in my poly life le...
i've thought abt it le...

haiz...

i've give my very best throughout my 2+ years working there n though i haf plenty of regrets...
there's no way i can do anything to resolve it bahx..

haiz...

I'm still tinking of U... 9:01 PM

hmmm.... ytd didnt blog cos too tired le...

so now den blog..
haha...

hmmm....on sundae work frm 6am-1pm...
work was alrite bahx...
though it's quite tiring...
actually i wan work until 5pm den can see someone le..
but nid go PS meet wei xiong at 6pm so no choice..
ever since he went NS..cant find any tym to meet him de...
anyway...i lyk his botak look....it's quite cute...
haha...

den we went PS for dinner after which jiu go play lan at paradiz le...
haha...
play until ard 10pm den rush back hougang mall to meet jack n haf supper at hougang plaza...
den ard 11.30pm we leave le...
btw..it was drizzling at dat tym...den i slowly walk hme frm there...
n i lyk e feeling....haha...so cooling..
haha...

anyway...for todae..
attachment still e same...very slack...i take my own sweet tym to do e things..
haha...

sianz...

i'm so tired nw le...
hw i wish i can take a long rest nw frm work n attachment....

i'll survive till e end...

everytym seeing U lyk tis....my heart hurts...hw i wish i can help u...
haiz... :'(
i'll b prayin very hard dat U'll b happy de..... 9:21 PM

hmmmm...
just came back frm work todae....
overall...can say hai hao bahx...
todae finally i almost cannot tahan e warmest plus e dust ard e place....
making mi feel more sick..
sianz.....
den todae work until 5pm again le..n saw HER again le...
but..haiz...
dunno wad to sae le....
so tired nw....

is it e tym for me to quit my ntuc job le???
i dunno...

haiz...

too tired le..
tomolo working at 6am...

sianz.....

i'm still tinking of U... 6:26 PM

haha...
jus wake up frm my evening nap.....
dun even haf e mood to eat my dinner.....so sianz...

todae take a half dae leave frm mt attachment to go for my course at my ntuc de branch....
startss at 2.30pm den end at 5pm..

haha...

sianz..
i'm still feeling sick..

dunno whether can recover by sat...
tym is running out for mi le....

sianz...

dunno whether i'll b working till 5pm or 10pm on sat...

haiz...

been tinking abt some things over e past few daes...

will U ever noe hw impt U r to mi??..
do U noe hw much i love U??..
n hw much i care abt ur well being??
do U noe dat,up till nw...i still dun haf e heart to throw e present away??
guess whether i'm still ard or mayb in hell...
U also wont care much de...
cos afterall... i'm jus a simple fren..n nth much le...
n hw i reali wish U can understand mi....


haiz...


if there's a choice between life n death nw...
my choice will b e 2nd one...
perhaps tis will be my birthdae wish come e 24th of oct bahx...

i'm tired of all tis le....

haiz.... 9:22 PM

sianz...
todae sneeze n cough lyk mad...

so sianz..
i hate tis feeling... it's terrible...

so sianz..


haiz..

todae in office quite fun bahx...kip joking ard wif my colleague....

haha...

sianz...
hope i can get well by sat....if not i sure haf difficulties while working de lorx....
so sianz...

i'm super tired nw...

but my mind is always tinking abt U.... 10:04 PM

sianz....

so bored todae...

i'm still feelin sick...

haiz...

todae almost quarrel wif my colleague again le...
kip on complainin abt tis n dat...
wth...

i'm in no fcuking mood to quarrel wif u lorx...
after seeing HER blog usin e com over there ard noon...
my mind was tinking n hoping dat u'll b fine n i was in no mood to do wad i'm surposed to do todae at e office le...

seeing u lyk tis hurts mi... n how i wish i can b there for u n help u.....

haiz...

i dunno wad to say le...

i hate gettin sick at tis moment...

haiz.. 9:34 PM

sianz...

todae whole dae feelin quite sick...
was absolutely no mood at e attachment..
almost quarrel wif one of my colleague...

luckily in e end never...all else...all hell will break loose le..

so sianz...

my heart is no longer there le....

it's also e same for my part tym job at e ntuc...
the main reason y i'm stayin there is jus becos to c U...
u noe whu u r bahx...

i no longer haf e energy to tolerate all tis le...
I'M TIRED...

haiz...

i'm tinking abt U all dae long...U're always on my mind...i Swear.. 9:47 PM

hmmm..... jus came back frm hougang pt not too long ago...

haha...

went there meet my xiong big bro den chat wif him for more den one hr den after dat went ard chattin wif those aunties over there..
den saw her also quite busy de...
if u r readin tis nw...

do takecare of urself bahx...
work is work...but rmb... studies is more impt for u nw...
i understand e tiredness n e difficulties of havin a part tym job while studying...
wadever e case...if u realli cant take it...i'll b there to support u de...

haha....

after chattin wif one of my department de aunties...
i tink i noe hw to solve e quarrels between them le bahx...
hmmm... i shall give it a try next sat when i went back to work bahx..

haha...

hmmm.... counting dwn to e doomsdae when e renovation is completed n e ntuc becum e hypermart n i'll b working lyk mad....

so sianx...
but i'll survive till the end....

i'm stil tinkin of u now... hoping dat u'll b fine.... 9:41 PM

sianz...

todae work so sucks...
super tired now...

but suprisingly...i still manage to tahan until 5pm despite my tiredness...
n all it's becos of waiting to c HER...
finally get to c HER todae le..after lyk so many wks lyk dat...

hmmm.... later going back again to meet my xiong big brother for dinner den also shun bian c her again...
haha...

hmm.....finally...i ended my break frm drinking le..ytd nite start my drinking again le...

mayb will cint again todae bahx..

my back pain is back... n i'm trying not to eat any painkillers for it le...

dat's all for now bahx...

do u noe u're always on my mind???? 6:01 PM